what else do I need to do? what else can I say? sorry? I have trained myself to love you. but you no longer look at me. why? what have I done to you? I tried so hard to be perfect. but you still throw me aside. I wish I was the symbol of passion. the passion that fills yours eyes. but I was always second in your heart. ~Almost Pefect But I Failed ~A Life Once Lost

I always pictured you with flowers in your hair. dancing in the dry rain. you held color beyond love. yet the sensation to no longer walk in is alive. in my eyes and heart. and all I could ask was for you to love but I am guessing that was even to hard. breaking the snows silence and this was the end. ~Gentle and Elegant ~A Life Once Lost

as I walked away scared. from the memories that I choked on. memories of you. wiping them away with glass. angels sing songs about you. they bleed in my dreams bringing those memories of you alive. as the angels fall to their knees. their wings were torn in my dreams. my eyes were torn to shreds. ~All Falls Rivers Failed ~A Life Once Lost

I try and catch myself from crying but the tears are dead. I can cry on your command. I can scream making my lungs bleed. I can stare at a broken reflection seeing you laughing at me. I pretend so that I can kill you. pieces of my heart cut me like suicide. I crave her touch. I crave her kiss. I wish I fell in love and never wakened from it's slumber. I wish I fell in love. ~Why Do You Make Me Bleed ~A Life Once Lost

Let me rip the throat of your still warm body
Cover my eyes with the blood of lying fool
A person you sought after innocence in my arms
A person you took advantage of
For I am the fool
I am the fool you walked past threw these lies
I am the man that shall be punished
Let it be known that we create a desire and that we are the only creatures that can
~Prepare Yourself for what is about to come ~A Life Once Lost

As the sun died in the background of the autumn trees, the cries ceased
The wind blew across the cold and blistered ground
Her vivid leaves danced in the air only inches above the ground they slept upon
The wind began to grow robbing the branches of the willow tree
With this the cries ceased
One by one the leaves fell upon the cold ground as the wind gathered itself once again
~The Tide ~A Life Once Lost

the damage has been done
listen to the cries of turmoil
as the day continues to rain
you can hear the vocal violence
silence the crowd
words fall short of sound
as the loudest of men
becom speechless
lack of breath
is what swept me away
as i wallow
helpless in this surreal atrocity
with night approaching
we all become vulnerable
everything seems to move slower
as time drifts apathetically
to great the dawn
as the new day begins
the effort to live becomes none
~Surreal Atrocities ~A Life Once Lost

it was your carless eyes
that strayed away
which brought forth
your true feelings
~Cavil ~A Life Once Lost

my heart pumps your rhapsody
i still lick my lips
to the thought of you
so now im stuck here
in the purgatory of longing
for that one kiss good-bye
i try to empty myself
of all desire that i crave for you
but the attempt only brings me
to my knees
i succumb to you idol
this subconscious social vampire
who haunts everythought
i chock on the will to demand patence
only to find myself swallowing blood
~The Change Came Suddenly ~A Life Once Lost

i am running
trying not to look back
leaping over fallen bodies
and seeking shelter from this living hell
~Nevermore will they have an understanding ~A Life Once Lost

nights turn into days
and i can only remember my dreams
they seem existent
creating the smell of perfume
the fumes turn into a plague
overbearing my senses
with some imaginary woman
who fucks me from hello
when i open my eyes
i see a reflection of myself
lost and motionless
~Pious ~A Life Once Lost

you already shattered
my self image
with your self righteous
fist of disapprval
~The Wicked Will Rot ~A Life Once Lost

now we are here
we are closer to absolute control
more than ever before
my growing desire
to conquer the world
increases over night
this surge of poetic tyranny
gushes through my body conduits
feelings meet me face to face
i stand up taller than you
and watch my hands smother this world
i want to leave millions hypnotized
and gasping for their last breath
i have been here once before by myself
this is nothing new for me
i am degraded and thrown aside
realization steps away from its waltz
with my mental shadows
to present this uncoated truth
~Overwhelming ~A Life Once Lost

i learned to break yesterday.
destroy tomorrow.
i've watched each leaf fall off my tree.
~Withered ~A Static Lullaby

All of the Alkaline Trio lyrics are worth reading.

The muscle and bone - they encase my heart but never touch my soul.
I'll save that for the water and its shore, fear makes friends with joy.
And I'll march slowly and I'll never forget
How the music stopped or the feel of your breath.
The flesh and the blood - they keep my body warm but still my mind is cold.
To know what fair is not always fair, but what proves real will never flee. ~The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter ~The Anniversary

I've seen those eyes. I've watched them close at night.
And you breathe in and you breathe out again.
Sister's coming over and I'm afraid to tell her secrets that I know.
Painting without colors, it tends to make it better, it bleaches out the world.
Was it the end - the end that kept you up till the morning?
Was it the boy - the boy who stole your heart?
The summer goes on and then dies quick without much warning. All things ordinary.
Will you stay near my now? Don't leave this town until we've figured out,
Between the two of us, we're strong enough - I feel that in your touch. ~All Things Ordinary ~The Anniversary

And girl I hope you're not alone - and sleep through this weather
And girl I hope you're whole again - back home we'll sleep better ~The D in Detroit ~The Anniversary

"You're Not The One Who Let Me Down, But Thanks For Offering." - Archers Of Loaf

Its funny how,
things work out
the ones we need
don't know we're there
If I were sand
and you were ocean
the moon would be
what pulls you to me
I wake up and think dreams are real
I sleep so I don't have to feel
the truth that you can never be
the one person that won't ever forget me

I hope that dreams
come when I die
so we can talk
I won't wake up
I'll ask you how
your life worked out
I'll never know
that I'm just dreaming
I wake up and think dreams are real
I sleep so I don't have to feel
the truth that you can never be
the one person that won't ever forget me

Let me sleep some more...
~Dream to make believe ~Armor for Sleep

sometimes we just have to let some things go
because
things cant be perfect
all the time
that i know
sometimes we just have to let somethings go
i promise to stop now
to stop now
i promse to stop now
to stop now
but things cant be perfect
all the time
that i know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
things cant be perfect
all the time
that i know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
letting go is my life
ill be on my way
~Kind of Perfect ~Armor for Sleep

Tonight, at twelve, we change, ourselves
forget, this world, we know
just how it will be
invisible so they won't see
our hearts beat
we won't hurt a thing
we just want to haunt this house
at least for now

Watch us change
kill the light
phantoms now
dead tonight

You'll be a ghost
I'll be your dream
you'll float through me
I'll disappear
You'll be a ghost
I'll be your dream
you'll float through me
I'll disappear

We'll stay in this room
sit still and enjoy the calm, we become
we'll fall down the stairs
nothing can support us now
we're not here

Watch us change
kill the light
phantoms now
dead tonight

You'll be a ghost
I'll be your dream
you'll float through me
I'll disappear
You'll be a ghost
I'll be your dream
you'll float through me
I'll disappear

I'll disappear
We're not here
I'll disappear
You'll be a ghost
I'll be your dream
you'll float through me
I'll disappear
You'll be a ghost
I'll be your dream
you'll float through me
I'll understand
~Phantoms Now ~Armor for Sleep

this planet wasn't made for me
all of you live so easy
I lay outside and up I stare
my home is in the void up there
full throttle now
the milky way can't wait
full throttle now
the milky way can't wait
diners have turned
into space ports
and I rocket past the moon
say your goodbyes now
I'll be in the wormhole soon

approach light speed
and break apart
I don't care now
nothings real somehow
approach light speed
and break apart
I don't care now
nothings real somehow
time has turned
into space ports
and I rocket past the moon
say your goodbyes now
I'll be in the wormhole soon
diners have turned
into space ports
and I rocket past the moon
say your goodbyes now
I'll be in the wormhole soon
~Slip like space ~Armor for Sleep

trust me I
would build for you
a world for you
trust me I
would build for you
a world for you
You'll never feel the cold
The years will be all warm

You'll bury yourself
When you've had enough
and the world will think
that you've just run off
but I'll always know
how you just did go
inside your stone world
Where winter is broken
~All Warm ~Armor For Sleep

so take your diamond bland shaped tears
and maybe i'll see you in twenty years
and i will always wear your ring
you know the one
that turned my finger green
it's not you, it's me
you don't know what
you've got 'til it's gone
silver platter opportunity
~give it a name ~at the drive-in

I'm a 21st century digital boy
I don't know how to read
But I got a lot of toys
My daddy's a lazy middle class intellectual
My mommy's on valium she's so ineffectual
Ain't life a mystery?
~21st Century Digital Boy ~Bad Religion

"And I want to conquer the world, kill all the idiots, and make a brand new religion"~BAD RELIGION

"You and me have a disease, you affect me, you infect me, im afflicted your addictive you and me you and me" ~Bad Religion

"Why do we pity the dead?" ~Bad Religion

*Wipe away my eyes, i have seen too much* ~Bauhaus

"The sales climb high in the garbage-pail sky, like a giant dildo crushing the sun" ~Beck

"One thing I learned when I was still a child was to be alone" ~Belle and Sebastian

"one day we will all be in this soil... with no gods to slave to, and no heroes to kill for." -between the buried and me

"I always wear a smile Because anything but a smile would make me have to explain And they wouldn't understand anyway I conceal my feelings so I won't have to explain what I can't explain anyway" ~Black Flag

i will spit in your face, until I die, for who I am and what i've become, you could never understand, who i am, what i am, what i've become, I will spit in your face, until i die ~Blood For Blood

"Don't gain the world and loose your soul,
Wisdom is better than silver and gold." ~Bob Marley

"Fallen Angels never fully regain control" ~Boy Sets Fire

"I hope you never look back and hate these days I held your hand" ~Boy Sets Fire

"...And I'll remeber spinning around in circles, just anticipating what the next stranger is going to do to me. And I'll remember what you did to me..." ~Boy Sets Fire

"a change... a turning...hearts that learn to love and forget to hate...the end of a system that makes us distrust each other...children's laughter...honest friendship...strangers trusting strangers...the end of nations...the end of war... then end of Religion and the genesis of love" ~Boy Sets Fire

I am nothing. Mold me, make me into something you find worth in, deem special I am no one. ~Vehicle ~Boy Sets Fire

A small dark place inside my mind will keep me safe and far behind. Where you can never hurt me again. The way you did and nothing can ever erase. ~Resection ~Boy Sets Fire

How many sorries does it take? Well I'm sorry, yeah so sorry that you weren't cool enough ~Blame ~Boy Sets Fire

"You can't look at the sky without looking right through it" ~Braid

"It's not what you said, it's how you said it" ~Braid, stolen from Death of A Salesman by Arthur Miller and then ripped off by Piebald

"She'd give everything for anything" ~Braid

"And I would talk about this year if there was something to talk about" ~Braid

1:15 began with a phone ring
I heard I stirred but I wasn't hurt
Tonight's lines are yours to keep
Go back to sleep
And that's wonderful when your world at its
worst seems bearable
Is it not so terrible to stay
And terrible to say
Why won't you change and walk into the rain
Where we love to splash and play
It will be here forever
While everyone's so convinced they know
everything is true
All I believe in is you

It was a wonderful puddle that I played in
And I was so young when it hit me
In no one you can believe

And that's terrible when these evil white lies
make hysterical habit forming beautiful
I miss my friends they live next door
But insincerity is so hard to ignore

It was a wonderful puddle that we played in
And at two and a half we hit back
Isn't that wonderful
And as they gather round our grave to splash and play they'll say
Why'd you have to change
And walk into the same
Where the dirty rain drains
You're gone in the morning
While everyone is so convinced they know everything is true
All I believe in is you
I do
I do believe in you
~Braid ~What A Wonderful Puddle

"I dont want to be a part of music versus the heart!" ~Braid

sometimes i can't see beautiful. i need you to show me secrets. can you breathe, so i can hear you. say to me that you're not leaving. ~Holly Park ~Brandtson

Now and then it seems worse than it is, but mostly the view is accurate. You see your breath in the air while you climb up the stairs to that coffin you call your apartment. And you sink in your chair, brush the snow from your hair and drink the cold away. You are not really sure what you are doing this for but you need something to fill up the days. A few more hours. There is a dream in my brain that just won't go away. It has been stuck there since it came a few nights ago I'm standing on a bridge in the town where I lived as a kid with my mom and my brothers. And then the bridge disappears and I'm standing on air with nothing holding me. And I hang like a star, fucking glow in the dark, for all those starving eyes to see, like the ones we've wished on. But now I'm confused. Is this death really you? Do these dreams have any meaning? No. No, I think it is more like a ghost that has been following us both. Something vague that we are not seeing, something more like a feeling. ~Something Vague ~Bright Eyes

"now i believe that lovers should be draped in flowers and layed entwined together on a bed of clover and left there to sleep left there to dream of their happiness." ~bright eyes

"you said you hated my suffering and you understood and you'd take care of me. You would always be there, well where are you now?" ~bright eyes

"from that same head you have twice removed a lock of hair you said would prove our love would never die. well ha ha ha." ~bright eyes

"so please forgive what I have done no you can't stay mad at the setting sun we all get tired I mean eventually there's nothing left to do but sleep." ~bright eyes

"i've locked my actions in the grooves of routine so that i may never be free of this apathy." ~bright eyes

"so i stand in the sun and i breathe with my lungs." ~bright eyes

"so i'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face, not this fucking wreck that's taken it's place." ~bright eyes

"it all collasped as you clasped your own little piece of nothing you claim as your own." ~cap'n jazz

"missed kisses blown through blue night air. walking you home with a bottle of boones between us. we're trying so hard to forget who we are." ~cap'n jazz

"fire is motion. work is repetition. this is my document. we are all we've done. we are all we've done. we are all defenses. this is my document, is motion growth? and you are colder than old could ever be. and you are bolder than buzzing bugs" ~cap'n jazz

Maybe I'll hold you when I cry...But maybe I won't. Its raining outside, of course we have to fight. ~The Casket Lottery

My eyes are feeling heavy, but too much is on my mind. ~The Casket Lottery

the coast tonight feels like home to me. i should stay all my life. all i need is salt and pepper sands and a handful of my best friends. ~A Thousand Oaks (Away From Home) ~The Casket Lottery

Do you feel sorry for yourself? when you make the same mistakes, tracing your boy's hands. yeah, we all have regrets, and we all can make mistakes. tracing these old plans is code red. have you ever felt so bad? when youre hiding in your room, and you can hardly ge tout of your bed. youve got your hands behind your back. youve given up. yeah, weve all been there. we know how it goes. when youd rather disappear, then you might as well be dead. even i'll be holding on when the days get too long, its hard not to just hold on. you hope that its the end, tomorrow it starts again, and its impossible to be strong. even i'll be holding on to the times it all seemed gone. when all the problems seemed solved. days your back breaks, and only black is in your heart, even i'll be holding on. ~Code Red ~The Casket Lottery

I lie awake after 20 years of sleep. learn to speak after 20 years of screams. am i coming in clear? calling you back home. do you recognize me? or has it been too long since...i got your message the wound is much too deep a cleansing is in order to make things neat. i'm calling you back home, do you recognize me, or has it been too long since i fell asleep? ~Rip Van Winkle ~The Casket Lottery

"i'm so miserably pathetic and helpless again. i'm so little lying next to you, in this cold sweat of mine." ~coalesce

"burn them, if your edge is so sharp it severs ties. burn them, if you've never been proud. burn them all." ~coalesce

Sleep deep, girl, dream well
That night, I think he cried himself to sleep
Just maybe, he felt more than we could ever know
And I think he pulled that trigger to empty that memory
I think he cut the weight to end the floods of you
Let him soar, let him ride as budding gravestones do
Just sleep, girl, just dream well ~Hell To Pay ~Converge

How it was for silence to say some of the loudest of things
To speak so effortlessly the words and syllables that can crush in an instant ~My Great Devastator ~Converge

And we won't be breathing in that same sun again. none of this will ever surface again. how we get older, how we forget about each other. and the angel falls to the sky. Raised and coiled she blessed this day she did. and it rings in our ears. she rarely flies anymore, burden broke her wings. and I know this ghost, I have seen it before. young it is the dying too fast, too soon, I'll be okay. the air thins in the quick and our lips move but we hear no sound. every time you justify, another good in you dies. faith and fear sears me, and love and you pull all the right strings. "how we get older, how we forget about each other," she said. entwined within the sadder of days. ~The Saddest Day ~Converge

These floods of you are unforgiving
Pushing passed me spilling through the banks
And I fall
Faster than light and faster than time
That's how memory works
At least in the dark where I'm searching for meaning
When I'm just searching for something
I want out
Out of every ackward day
Out of every tongue tied loss
I want out
Out of the burdening nightsweats
Out of the rising seas of blood ~Jane Doe ~Converge

Theres reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last ~Counting Crows

you tell me that love won't break your heart. i'll tell you yeah you live forever. in a lie you'll never see. say there's nothing to be afraid of. that there's nothing really there. but that was a long long time ago. raise your glass. raise your glass. to death the new revolution. to death the new revolution ~The Great Depression ~Cross My Heart

wish i came with a kill switch. but i'm so energized. with love and lies and questions. like who the hell am i. who the hell are you. who the hell am i. how long must i wait. what the hell am i. what the hell are you. what the hell am i. how long must i wait. so i put my mind to the test. and now i'm on a quest to be the best. as i smolder. this is the way to kill. your wandering gaze. your dizzy haze. you're up in flames. tonight we'll light ourselves on fire. in spite of all the good days we've never known. we'll burn at the stake. ~Tonight We'll Light Ourselves On Fire ~Cross My Heart

i'm thinking all about human condition. i wish that i could paint myself invisible. or at least take me out of the phone book. last night. i was ready to pull the plug. that fueled the light in my eyes. and i know i should be happy. i take my medication. cause it will make me happy. a psychosomatic way of life. maybe i'll fly down to mexico. just get me through the next seventy two. spinning around. my head is all over town. and i could love you better than he can. last night i was ready. and london bridge is falling down again. and i deserve to be happy. tonight i'll dream in the green green grass. and smile with smoke filled lungs. but i know i'll dream of a painful past. and sleep with psychotic eyes. and i know if i can. i'll try it all over again. so i take my medication. cause it will make me happy. and it will make me whole ~London Bridge ~Cross My Heart

"the stars above have lost their shine, and so, my love, departs our sight." ~Cursive

"When you're steady I'm just acting out my role, when you're ready I'll be walking out the door. Oh, foolish worker bee, I'm your fucking queen" ~Cursive

"The night has fallen down the staircase, and I, for one, have felt its bruises" ~Cursive

"Oh Cursive, you're so cool!" ~Cursive

"let's pretend we're not needy. let's pretend our hearts still beat." ~Cursive

"i don't want to be seen as a pretty thing because it's the pretty things that we're always breaking." ~Cursive

"drowned, deep in this hole we've dug for ourselves." ~Cursive

Sleep, my Sweetie, let the days expire
They've outnumbered you
Hold me sweetly, like the days we bled with love
A red so deep we sunk
We sunk... ~Cursive

"I don't need your way of life. I can't stand your attitudes. I can do without your strife. I don't need this fucking world." ~Dead Kennedys

"Economy is looking bad.
Let's start another war" ~Dead Kennedys

Efficiency and progress is ours once more
Now that we have the Neutron bomb
It's nice and quick and clean and gets things done
~Kill The Poor ~Dead Kennedys

"What's ripped us apart even more than drugs
Are the thieves and the goddamn liars.
Ripping people off when they share their stuff
When someone falls are there any friends?
Harder-core-than-thou for a year or two
Then it's time to get a real job
Others stay home its no fun to go out
When the gigs are wrecked by gangs and thugs

Walk tall. Act small.
Only as tough as gang approval.
*~*Unity is bullshit
When it's under someone's fat boot*~*
Where's the common cause?
Too many factions safely sulk in their shells
"Agree with us on everything
Or we won't help with anything"
That kind of attitude just makes the split grow wider." ~Chickenshit Conformist ~Dead Kennedys

"Seems like the more I think I know
The more I find I don't.
Every answer opens up so many questions.
Anarchy sounds good to me
'Til someone asks "Who'd fix the sewers?"
Or would the rednecks just play king of the neighborhood??

How many liberators really want to be dictators?
Every theory has its holes when real life steps in.
So how do we feed and make room for all those people crowded on our Earth
And transfer all that wealth from the rich to those who need it?" ~Where Do Yo Draw the Line? ~Dead Kennedys

All religions make me wanna throw up
All religions make me sick
All religions make me wanna throw up
All religions suck
They all claim that they have the truth
That'll set you free
Just give 'em all your money and they'll set you free
Free for a fee
They all claim that they have 'the Answer'
When they don't even know the Question
They're just a bunch of liars
They just want your money
They just want your consciousness
~Religious Vomit ~Dead Kennedys

You don't want abortions, you want battered children
You want to ban the pill as if that solves the problem
Now you wanna force us to pray in school
God must be dead if you're such a fool ~Moral Majority ~Dead Kennedys

"won't somebody please undo this dream?" ~Denali

"in all this time i wait for you i staple down my heart." ~Denali

"i'm in the same rotation, waiting on a clear reason why this is wrong way out." ~Denali

I will never be safe, I will never be sane, I will always be wierd inside, I will always be lame ~Everclear

If I were you I would hide behind that stupid bleach blonde hair now I've got no place to go I've got no place to go I've got nowhere no one I have given up on the sparkle I saw in you yeah that simple minded sparkle that I thought I saw yes I have wondered why you changed I like it when you were super loud.... ~Sparkle ~Everclear

"Everybody wants the truth but everybody lies everybody wants some proof but everybody's blind so open up your eyes i really don't know much of anything at all but i'll admit we're all the same you ask forgiveness and you make the same mistakes and i'll admit we're all the same i want to know do these words mean anything? how can this life mean something more than what it seems? everybody wants equality but we're all prejudice we're all hypocrites everybody wants the world but we have nothing" ~I Want ~Face to Face

"ever feel like there's so much more to life, but you just don't know how to reach it right now?" ~Fairweather

"Suffered through tragedy of my slow decay, Deceptive tendencies dragged my soul away" ~Fear Factory

All that I know there was no God for me, Force that shatters all, absence of mortality-Forsaken by destiny, forsaken by my own mind, I must remove my skin, to see belief in your eyes" ~Fear Factory

So withdrawn and feeling numb
Watching life all come undone
Growing fear, a human grace
A drowning mind in a dark embrace ~Zero Signal ~Fear Factory

Everyday I feel anonymous hate
Forever in the shadows of disgrace ~Replica ~Fear Factory

"The concious mind is dead
And I buried him
Beneath this scarred tissue
Armored skeleton
The machine is now alive
Desensitized with open eyes
Powered by an angry mind
And is refueled by those I despise ~Hunter Killer ~Fear Factory

"For all the sleep you have missed here's what you show for this. Wake up, wake up, finish what you started" ~The Firebird Band

"In you I see my end" ~The Firebird Band

"But now she's turned a kind that isn't so much in demand, and all us vegetables can waste our time on someone else." ~Slow Nerve Action ~Flaming Lips

"the shallow waters that you come upon show how empty your life truly is." ~from autumn to ashes

"paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds. tears of misery stain scar-filled minds." ~from autumn to ashes

"i tie my arms to feel free. have you ever been free?" ~fugazi

"you make yourself so beautiful, you make yourself so, so beautiful and now i feel like i'm going, i'm going to set myself on fire." ~fugazi

"you can't belittle this, this could change everything. this one is mine to believe." ~further seems forever

"Just one more time, just one more second and we'll be just fine.." ~Further Seems Forever

"Say goodnight, means goodbye. Do you think my life will stop when your away?" ~The Get Up Kids

"my relationship with reality, it comes & goes" ~GRADE

"i'm strapped within the weakness of my uncertainty, my sexuality, and my inadequacy." ~grade

"This is the time of my life, when everything is falling apart, and at the same time is all coming together" ~Grade

"i am breathing, yet i feel no sky. things without wings have begun to fly." ~guided by voices

The story of life is quicker than the wink of an eye. The story of life is hello and goodbye. Until we meet again. ~Jimi Hendrix

"and if it feels too early to rise, lay back down and close your eyes. the war will wait for you." ~hey mercedes

"there is grief in wisdom, there is sorrow in truth. yet, the heart of the wise is in the house of mourning." ~Hopesfall

"Wash this from my eyes, all the sad goodbyes...Make me feel again." ~Hopesfall

"and the way that you walk just makes me nervous inside. and the way that you talk, won't you come over tonight?" ~hot rod circuit

"Breathe in, exhale, you know you taste like cancer" ~Hot Rod Circuit

"Questions, you answer me with questions, you answer me with lies, one line at a time." ~Hot Rod Circuit

"completions don't always come easy when you've gathered much too much to move." ~hot water music

"but there will be times when it will seem like we are caught someplace in between the ocean and the storm without a shore." ~hot water music

"and who gives a fuck what anybody says we'll live and love until we're dead holding on to what we've come to know." ~hot water music

"we still wake up after we dream of the day we find ourselves free." ~hot water music

can't think of turning back clocks can't run for what has been lost and we can't sulk in what once drowned us because we will drown again and cease to win the constant battles that we wake up with now stronger and warned we should live without scorn and renew what we can no year could cut us like that one is we don't sit and drown in wonder time passed we failed we crashed but who is to say we can't start over start now start right stay tight and we can live side by side ~Where We Belong ~HotWaterMusic

we're still here scarred but here but then again we were invincible then we're still here just not like then without a care full of hate when we smashed for laughs and to prove to all fuckers we would quit school stuck ink and called the working man and the men who worked fools to hit bottom and to crash we though the last sight of us was the last sign of us we thought the last sight of us was the last sign of us we thought wrong because face to face here we stand strong but this time we stand for good ~Moonpies for misfits ~Hotwatermusic

i can't look down on those that become found on their own or that walk to a beat they know they found alone i believe in change for inner peace and thoughts that ring us awake ~Another Way ~Hotwatermusic

lets dance while we still can these days are numbered short we can watch moments pass or we can see them as our last and take them for all they're worth so lets dance while we can throw caution to the wind and roll on full force until drained so that burn remains through worst of times and not wait for another day or for the perfect day to up and rise we never know what new days take so why waste all the hours to grow with those we know and i'm asking why we waste time alone when we should know to roll on full force and take advantage of these days that shape our lives and not wait for another day just because we have not enough time to roll on full force till drained so that burn remains through worst of times and not wait another day or for the perfect day to up and rise off my ass out my front door and up to yours to sit down with a fucking cup of coffee and shoot the shit ~Moments Pass ~Hotwatermusic

And I just can't seem to get away
There's no such thing as escape,
Even with the sedaives
You're always in the same state,
Clutching to a limbo scene.
You're never changing anything,
You just stop the shaking.
And it's constantly repeated through the days. ~Trusty Chords ~Hotwatermusic

tearing out the stitches leaving the holes behind i don't see shit in yesterday i just say fuck it to yesterday ~Hate Mail Comes In August ~Hotwatermusic

i just might carve it in my skin so there is no mistaking it might tear the walls down with my hands if there is time i might spend every night just drinking it might be my mistaking it i might never stop the flame from burning so i ask myself again why do i let this roll my way as if i have a chance to change it fears: can not read them from escaping: might be all i have progress: do i need this from expanding i can never stop i can't stop to let myself wither but i can dream of an answer i won't stop to let myself wither so i fight this plague ~You Can Take The Boy Out Of Bradenton ~Hotwatermusic

and the beauty wreaks my soul (and i'll see the light all night) and the power kills my will and this feeling leaves me cold ~Loft ~HotWaterMusic

i'll let the truth encircle me it's a never ending fight but what's true will never die and we can take the power like we gave it so teach me something i'm wide open i'll teach you something if you listen ~Never Ender ~Hot Water Music

words of war don't mean shit if the war's for nothing i'll wait for now so show me how this all works cause all these things just seem empty and that's what hurts so i can't help but to question what was real or what was concealed did you need to abandon and change face if you started today - would you miss it cause we've been blind i don't want to believe that the truth is lost so easily was it a mistake taken the wrong way through our worst days or did loyalty not mean a goddamn thing in the ending if you started today - would you miss it cause we've been blind and i don't want to believe that the truth is lost so easily so i can't help but to question what was real or what was concealed though trial and error did take place did you need to change face and abandon what was is real or what we felt pulled heavy weight what grounded us what astounded me was it all for nothing ~Alachua ~Hot Water Music

i believe that there is more to life than just living and i don't see how you can stay so covered with cold i wish you would open up and shine the light that i knew ~The Bitter End ~Hot Water Music

i've dropped my jaw and lived screaming no until i saw it did no good but i couldn't help but scream how cruel is it for a world to select what is or is not beautiful only fools live in the days where the sun rises to separate and segregate ~Dead End Music ~Hot Water Music

show me how how to recognize a breakdown because i want to take it as it comes deal with what goes wrong with my chin always up and my feet planted sure in the ground ~Take it as it comes ~HotWaterMusic

no i don't want to be saved from this world cause i believe it's beautiful and worth fighting for ~Wrong and Righteous ~HotWaterMusic

let us know we're not alone thanks to the people who shared and helped us feel intact to come back shake it off and ride to rock again it's a lesson i didn't mind learning the hard way ~Western Grace ~HotWaterMusic

i've gotten the scars to remind me i've watched the clocks go around i've walked myself through some days that have put me where i am in another time in another place all things might have been in place but for now i'm finding myself up here standing on a rooftop screaming ~Rooftops ~HotWaterMusic

you're at war with yourself with space and time you'll find a breakthrough if you don't lose what's real you have our blessing clear your conscience and ride away ~Manual ~HotWaterMusic

"you lied right in my face, you broke my fucking heart. one day, one day you tore my heart apart." ~i hate myself

"there's a feeling that's inside me, telling me to get away, but i'm so tired of living, i might as well end today." ~Iron Maiden

In the same confusing breath,
you pull away and draw me in.
I wanted you. You wanted more.
I built this life and now it's mine.
A near miss or a close call?
I keep a room at the hospital.
I scratch my accidents into the wall.
I couldn't wait to breathe your breath.
I cut in line, I bled to death.
I got to you, there was nothing left.
~accident prone ~Jawbreaker

"I'm sorry that you're the one I love." ~The Jenova Project

"I'm glad that I broke your heart, I'm glad I made you cry, glad i made you spend those nights alone without me" ~The Jenova Project

"It's like they handed me my life...and for the first time it felt right." ~Jets To Brazil

"I keep trying to find you somewhere smiling over me" ~Jets To Brazil

You write the lie you'd like to be when your life looks like a book you wouldn't read." ~Jets To Brazil

"And it's so nice stitting very still, without those old shoes I could never fill." ~Jets to Brazil

"Be a believer, believe everything and you'll be right, half the time" ~Jets to Brazil

"Time heals nothing by itself..." ~jimmy eat world.

"Its only in your dreams but it felt like it was real" ~Jimmy Eat World

sweet muse left me all alone ~Jimmy Eat World

"You say the most beautiful things" ~Jimmy Eat World

"Can't depend on honest answers from dependant hands, won't accept an honest answer from an open hand." ~Jimmy Eat World

"I'm ashamed of the things I've been put through, I'm ashamed of the person I am!" ~Joy Division.

"just for one moment, thought i'd found my way. destiny unfolded, i watched it slip away." ~Joy Division

"Sha-la-la-la-la-la" ~The Juliana Theory

"You're the dream that hasn't ended and I'm still anxious for rest" ~The Juliana Theory

"I want to hold you forever in my arms, I want to kiss your tears away tonight, It's hard to give up on the one you never thought you'd leave." ~Brett Detar-The Juliana Theory

"In one night you made me your own, in one hour you gave me away to the Angels." ~The Juliana Theory

I only tell the truth of the feelings I'm given. Can you hear me now? Listen. Whispers in the rain. Listen. Don't push love away, you know you do. It's all we have. ~Dont Push Love Away ~The Juliana Theory

Do you understand? The dream is over. ~The Juliana Theory

Silence is a secret, a weapon in disguise. Listen to the silence. Open up your eyes. Do you decide what you hear and believe? Tell me who makes your mind up for you. Do you believe what you see to be true? Can you tell me who owns the truth? Who bought the truth? What is your disposition? ~The Juliana Theory

Did you really think that it was over when you hung up the phone and said goodnight? And did you ever think that it would be too much? I can't leave without saying goodbye. So did you really think that you could take it? Could you make it alone tonight? I never could have hoped for anything more. Be my angel if you can, alright. You always say goodnight, and you always say goodnight. So baby did you sleep an hour for me? How I wish I was there right now. I wasn't going to tell you I could change things. I'm afraid I never will know how. But I don't really think that I can take it. Will I make it alone somehow? So hold me in your arms before I leave you. I'll be back as soon as time allows. You always say goodnight, and you always say goodnight. Goodnight. ~YOU ALWAYS SAY GOODNIGHT, GOODNIGHT ~The Juliana Theory

"you'll be anything you want to be you'll still mean everything to me so fly away across the ocean that day fly away and don't look back this way..." ~The Juliana Theory

if i told you this was killing me would you stop? ~The Juliana Theory

your star it seems to shine above the rest you're the face before the cameras the smile i'd like to earn the closest thing to perfect.....your the beauty that is deeper than eyes can merely see the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me and i'd love to be the shoulder that you cry on and i'd love to be the friend you call when things are great you're the dream that hasn't ended and i'm still anxious for the rest your words they seem to hang above my head you're the bud before the flower unfurls into full bloom captivating beauty but it may be all too soon you're the song that writes a story but leaves alot to read the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me and like i really deserve a chance to sit across a table and tell you that i think you're wonderful and i think you're something special i guess this is my only chance to say i wish i knew you because i'm sure you're wonderful if i'd get to know you. ~The Closest Thing ~The Juliana Theory

friday evening everything comes tumbling down i choke back each tear that bleeds i'd rather rest forever in your arms i'd rather stay here than go but i know that i should leave as i sit here helpless don't go you said you wouldn't you said you couldn't i think of our time together is it fading am i dreaming everything you said lives on i cherish our memories i want to kiss your tears away tonight it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave don't go your eyes see through my soul don't go you say as i walk out the door. ~AUGUST IN BETHANY~ The Juliana Theory

some things can never be explained why every sky still looks the same and i wonder how my world would look without you some things can never be explained like how our scars remain the same and i wonder how the sky would look without my star sleep seems a dream away and a year too late words that can't be spoken stream off my face i want't to be selfish you are my everything some things can never be explained why does your love remain unchanged cause i know it wouldn't be the same without you sleep seems a dream away and a year too late words that can't be spoken stream off your face please don't forget my name and take me with you when you leave i've got a lot to lose i've got to let it go please don't forget my name. ~CONSTELLATION ~The Juliana Theory

i picture you sighing soft only in my dreams whisper kisses only in my dreams and they're always here to remind me... pictures stars and dreams calling me when i look up you're the brightest star in a pocketful of skies my colored picture in a world of black and white my only dream come true on a restless winter night when i look back on a picture of the past i close my eyes and make believe i was still there cause all i have left are pictures and stars and dreams to hold on to i'll never wish on another star again ~PICTURES, STARS, AND DREAMS ~The Juliana Theory

i sure hope that you always know i'll miss you and i hope that when you sleep you're looking up cause when i rest i think of all those tired times and i can't sleep when you're gone those closed eyes remind me of what we have please don't open them yet. ~The Juliana Theory

i should have known better than to breathe you in the first time i held you there for just a second but the mistake was mine now i can't take my hands off you i can't keep my hands off of you i thought i'd only hold you once more then i thought i'd let you go i thought once would be enough but i guess that wasn't so now i need you every day i need you more and more. ~Infatuation ~The Juliana Theory

"Whatever you do, oh whatever you do, yeah whatever you do, don't take my advice." ~Jump, Little Children

"there's a man around, his face always fire-truck red. i've heard there were angels in his head, but now he holds a baseball bat instead." ~Karate

"if fear comes from children and muffled conversations behind doors, politics are from lawyers, and the cops are in it too, i'm sure." ~Karate

Who cares how much you cry? You could fill a bucket with your sorrow from eye to eye. ~Who Cares How Much ~Kind Of Like Spitting

Gave up everything for heartbreak and sweet cake for second looks and make out sessions under the stars. And when they look at our dirty hands we get followed in supermarkets. You especially with your backpack with patches, you're not even that punk anymore, they don't know the difference like I do. You gave up everything for a 1983 ideology, romantic novels in your back pocket. I'm sitting on my ass at the gas station smoking cigarettes, my feet are drenched with rain, I'm throwing in the towel. ~We Got As Far As Minnesota ~Kind Of Like Spitting

You could teach me to get to sleep. I haven't slept in days I haven't slept in years. Like I never sleep cuz I'm still afraid what I think gets continued in sleep. ~Maybe We Should Get Married ~Kind Of Like Spitting

I can't lie. There's a hole in my life that leaves me feeling like killing, the sound of my voice. The shrill screams aren't passing quite as fast as they used to. I'm twenty-two and I feel like I've tried everything. I can't die. Some force keeps holding me up. It doesn't take a very smart man. Obsession I need you to want me not to want me. You won't admit it but I'm only dragging you under. I'm twenty-two and I feel like I've tried everything. I wish I could grant you a way to roll back time to forget the day you ever laid those beautiful eyes on me. ~A Thought From The Kitchen Floor ~Kind Of Like Spitting

I never guessed a kiss could feel so honest. I never expected a thing from you. I'm not the one who's special but it made me feel so brand new. You made me feel like nothing mattered. Made me believe that love was pure. I want to feel like I still matter to you. Stayed up all night same as last night and the one before just like the night we spent before. Last time I saw you I tried to hide it wasting my time hoping you would walk by. I would have never guessed how deeply you have made me fall for you. I'm not sure how you still feel about us, I myself am a bit confused. I realize that you don't need me but right now I'm missing you. Please don't let it end this way. ~Please Dont Let It End Like This ~Kind Of Like Spitting (Eric Mast)

"Friends that go between sing like canaries crushed in spring" ~Kind of Like Spitting

"You feel fat and I feel ugly, together we don't like anybody" ~Kind of Like Spitting

"Your heart and your lips, the parts of your being that I miss" ~Kind of Like Spitting

Know that we wish there were circles in all
And hope that but notice
As you walk through hopeless halls
And there are better days waiting for everyone
But cheekbones, good homes
Won't always be there
They won't always be there
Set out to shut up
And you know that you want them to care
~Katherine the Grateful ~Knapsack

We are flawless proof
We are breaking loose
I am ready to expire in all directions
All this breaking news
Just keeps breaking you
~Change is all the Rage ~Knapsack

It's cold enough to break
Beneath the weight of this mistake
And no one can tell me it's alright

I hope it's not too late
For the man who's less than brave
And no one can tell me but no one can tell

Deny the charges, call collect
Fodding over the failed attempt
And I am failing you
There are answers, never tell
Sharing rooms with cancer cells
I am not immune

Call out and come down
I finally recognize
Tired angels barely able
Keep me safe tonight

It's cold enough to break
Beneath the weight of this mistake
And no one can tell me it's alright

I hope it's not too late
For the man who's less than brave
And no one can tell me but no one can tell

We're keeping quiet and we'll decide
What's desperation, sick inside
I am not allowed

There are reasons I will keep
Ever-hopeful fall asleep
I can show you how

Call out and come down
I finally recognize
Tired angels barely able
Keep me safe tonight

It's cold enough to break
Beneath the weight of this mistake
And no one can tell me it's alright
~Cold Enough to Break ~Knapsack

Through the brush and pine trees
And the rushing hands freeze
When I realized they're mine
And the water tears us
From the sunlit terrace
We're descending by design

I'm amazed how perfectly we match decay
We're getting lost we're not the way

And the day was dangerous to everyone
We were not surprised
It had just begun
~Arrows to the Action ~Knapsack

Measure in degrees
The arc of how we fell
Tell them all to go to hell
And take everything

Stars are never right
Burning fast tonight
They radiate their dirty light
So I can see
~hummingbirds ~Knapsack

I have only one regret
At the moment I forget
Any takers on this life
And if you're the last one left
This is my request
Could you just shut off the lights
~Please Shut Off the Lights ~Knapsack

Sounds good, serves him right
On the first day he swears
The secrets in the sacrifice
~Courage Was Confused ~Knapsack

They lie with their hearts crossed
With words that were one
They're broken and breathless
They fall through these folds
We're hopelessly helpless
~Decorate the Spine ~Knapsack

I held the hand that held the rock
That broke the glass out of the window
I told a friend about a friend
He said I'm wrong yeah what does he know
I slit the wrist I made a fist
I tightened up and let the blood flow
I told a friend about a friend
He said I'm wrong yeah what does he know
~Heart Carved Tree ~Knapsack

I'll go a day
I'm gone for days

I know a way
I know the way
But I can't speak
~Cellophane ~Knapsack

Kill the first one that escapes from the basement
A move to try and suffocate your replacement

Holding back the hand that shakes
He waits for

An open space out on the floor
He waits for

Effortless
Distance yourself from the rest
Effortless
A wishing well that won't confess to
~Effortless ~Knapsack

Take a second, think of everything that you've done
You're getting warmer while your former
Blocks out the sun
Standing close to the ground a lucky charm he found
To wish this away
Pressing deep in his palm for some kind of calm
To make things seem okay
~Fortunate and Holding ~Knapsack

A page of noise
To spell this out
To remind me what to do
Who says I ever knew

And I grind my gears
To get out of here
This mess demands my best
And I haven't seen my best for years
~Addressee ~Knapsack

I managed the motion
This ache is wide and open
Only after I'm amazed
This damn thing must be broken
This ache is hiding, hoping
Hoping to hold out for a break
~Silver Sweepstakes ~Knapsack

what i'd give to. be the one. to have my name linger. on your tongue. warm-hearted you. became so numb. i'm not on your tongue. will aspirins and alcohol. someway decrease the ache. from knowing that you'll do to him. the same you did to me. that's nice. thought they were mutual. those loving words. thought it was more than. just making love ~Aspirins and Alcohol ~Last Days Of April

would you trade me. for more of yourself. when it's silent. try not to give too much. so you won't grow tired. and i knew you. the good and the bad. the days i recall being wonderful. and i lost you. because i held it back. please tell me that everything will work out fine. pictures taken fast. the proof that i've known you. in albums stuck to bleach. but memories they'll keep. if this is the last dance. then may i have it ~The Days I Recall Being Wonderful ~Last Days of April

words i keep in here. thoughts that make me scared. always seem to show. your eyes let me know you know. it's not you. it's all me. as if me taking all the blame would make you feel much better now. but all lights burn out. what i'd like to say. is that staying friends is okay. but you and me we know. that in one heart love would grow. same time tomorrow. when i wake up. will the violins be playing. when my heart finally opens. will you be there to embrace me. because it's all so crazy now. it's all so fucked up now. i always thought that i. would find what i lack in you ~Be Playing? ~Last Days of April

"a friend of mine, he pointed out to me that i'm not the same as i used to be. and you know he made me think twice about who i am." ~less than jake

Forget everything I've said before, I dont feel that way today, Forget everything I've felt before, I felt it come yesterday I'm comfortable feeling miserable, And I never want to change, Forgive me for I know not what I've done or what I'll do, Forgive us all cause we have all begun to do as we chose, No desire to live, No desire to change, No desire to try, Cause it allways stayts the same, No desire, Disregaurd all of my words, I dont feel that way today, Disregaurd everything I've done, It meant nothing anyways, I'm comfortable feeling miserable, And I never want to change ~Desire ~Life Of Agony

"I'm lost in your shadows" ~Heroin Dreams ~Life Of Agony

"And my life has passed me by, And I dont know why, I keep searching for something that I never found, While these weeds get deeper as I turn around, And time groes older and I've grown colder" ~Weeds ~Life Of Agony

"I can't think of anything I'd rather do than have my heart broken by you." ~Lifetime

And if I don't know who to love
I love them all
And if i don't know who to trust
I trust them all
And if I don't know who to kill
No suicide
I'm already dead
~Live

"Something in my mind won't let my heart out of the darkness yet" ~Local H

"I know i'm nothing special and I know i'm nothing great I know i'm nothing different but i just don't feel the same what's wrong with me" ~Local H

If I leave here tommorow, will you still remember me?
I don't know where I'm goin'. I just want to be left alone. ~Lynard Skynyrd

"So you said goodnight But you meant goodbye. Now our love has died. This is why I cry" ~Magnetic Fields

Blackened Is the End
Winter it Will Send
Throwing All You See
Into Obscurity
Death of Mother Earth
Never a Rebirth
Evolution's End
Never Will it Mend
Never

Fire
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Blackened Is the End
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Color Our World Blackened ~Blackened ~Metallica

The Ultimate in Vanity
Exploiting Their Supremacy
I Can't Believe the Things You Say
I Can't Believe
I Can't Believe the Price You Pay
Nothing Can Save You ~And Justice For All ~Metallica

I Can't Remember Anything
Can't Tell If this Is True or Dream
Deep down Inside I Feel to Scream
this Terrible Silence Stops Me ~One ~Metallica

All Have Said Their Prayers
Invade Their Nightmares
See into My Eyes
You'll Find Where Murder Lies ~Harvester of Sorrow ~Metallica

Welcome to where time stands still
no one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, No windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred

Sleep my friend and you will see
that dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
can't they see it's why my brain says Rage ~Welcome Home (Sanitarium) ~Metallica

It's just not the same when you wake up in the morning
With a smile on your face
When you know you lied yourself to sleep to make it better
To make it better ~Slower ~Mineral

I was early to finish and late to start, I might be an adult but I'm a minor at heart ~Minor Threat

I'm working on leaving, I'm working on leaving the living, In heaven everything is fine ~Workin' on leaving' the livin' ~Modest Mouse

well i'm fed up and i need to go out of existance or just down the road forever.. ~Other People's Lives ~Modest Mouse

You said that I was an asshole and I paid the price
Broken hearts want broken necks
I've done some things that I want to forget but I can't
Broke my pace and ran out of time
Sometimes I'm so full of shit that it should be a crime ~Broke ~Modest Mouse

Self pity me so pitiful
you can see that birds and worms do not agree
and we will crawl ~Birds vs. Worms ~Modest Mouse

Sometimes all I really want to feel is love
Sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry
Sometimes my feelings get in the way
Of what I really feel I needed to say ~Edit the Sad Parts ~Modest Mouse

Travelling swallowing Dramamine
Feeling spaced breathing out listerine
I'd said what I'd said that I'd tell ya
And that you'd killed the better part of me
If you could just milk it for everything
I've said what I'd said and you know what I mean
But I still can't focus on anything
We kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves
Travelling swallowing dramamine
Look at your face like you're killed in a dream
And you think you've figured out everything
I think I know my geometry pretty damn well
You say what you need so you'll get more
If you could just milk it for everything
I've said what I said and you know what I mean
But I can't still focus on anything ~Dramatimes ~Modest Mouse

And I said you shouldn't make facts out of opinions
He said that I was right
You're right I knew that I was
And I'd hate to see anybody thank you
But I'd like to see you fail saying thank you though(?)
I'm not sure who I am
I'm not sure who I am but I know who I've been
And I said you can't make everybody happy
He said you'd like to at least make yourself happy though
I'm not sure who I am
I'm not sure who I am but I know who I've been
MIGHT
I might
And you might
But neither of us do, though
And neither of us will
I broke every bone in my goddamn jaw
That's a lot it's the last one I ever got(?)
I might
And you might
But neither of us do, though
And neither of us will
Yesterday night I broke every bone in my jaw
Thought so hard it's the last thing I ever thought ~Make Everyone Happy/Mechanical Birds ~Modest Mouse

Our hearts are used up, cracked and dry
Pulled the scabs off of regrets
We haven't learned to eat our conscience yet ~Ohio ~Modest Mouse

She ionizes and atomizes
Then turns to sunlight
He realizes and itemizes
Pulls harder than gravity
She ionizes and atomizes
Then turns to sunlight
Flourescent lightbulbs will make
An absense of dark, but
The light just aint there still ~She Ionizes and Atomizes ~Modest Mouse

And I claim I'm not excited with my life any more
So I blame this town, this job, these friends
The truth is it's myself
And I'm trying to understand myself
and pinpoint where i am
By the time I get things figured out
I've change the whole damn plan
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Talking shit about a pretty sunset
Blanketing opinions that i'll probably reget soon
I've changed my mind so much I cant even trust it
My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself ~Talking Shit About A Pretty Sunset ~Modest Mouse

i came clean with myself, i come clean out of love with my lover, i still love her ~Bankrupt On Selling ~Modest Mouse

And I'm lonesome when you're around, And I'm never lonesome when I'm by myself, And I miss you when you're around ~Baby Blue Sedan ~Modest Mouse

I was in heaven, I was in hell, Believe in neither, But fear them as well ~Doin the Cockroach ~Modest Mouse

Jesus Christ was an only child, He went down to the river, And he drank and smiled, And his dad was oh-so-mad, Should have killed that little fucker ~Jesus Christ Was An Only Child ~Modest Mouse

Polar opposites don't push away
It's the same on the weekends as the rest of the days
And I know I should go but I'll probably stay
And that's all you can do about some things
I'm trying to drink away the part of the day
That I cannot sleep away ~Polar Opposites ~Modest Mouse

This plane is definately crashing
This boat is obviously sinking
This building's totally burning down
And my, and my (a whole bunch)
And my heart has slowly dried up ~Shit Luck ~Modest Mouse

I wanna live in a city with no friends or family, I'm gonna look out the window of my color T.V., I wanna remember to remember to forget you forgot me ~A Different City ~Modest Mouse

I stepped down as president of Antarctica
Can't blame me, don't blame me, don't
So long to this sad, sad part of the world
So long, So long ~The Cold Part ~Modest Mouse

I might disintegrate into the thin air if you'd like, I'm not the dark center of the universe like you thought ~Dark Center of the Universe ~Modest Mouse

Everyone's afraid of their own life If you could be anything you want I bet you'd be disappointed, am I right? No one really knows the ones they love If you knew everything they thought I bet that you'd wish that they'd just shut up ~Lives ~Modest Mouse

I can't be a fool for everyone that I don't know ~Paper Thin Walls ~Modest Mouse

I hope, I hope there's something better up there
Cuz you cocked your head to shoot me down, down
And I don't give a damn about you or this town no more
No cuz I know the score
Well good luck believing every word that's said
I hope you have enough space in your head
I don't know, broke my back ~Perfect Disguise ~Modest Mouse

All the stars are projectors, yeah
Projecting our lives down to this planet Earth ~Stars Are Projectors ~Modest Mouse

Everything that keeps me together is falling apart, I've got
this thing that I consider my only art of fucking people over ~Third Planets ~Modest Mouse

And the one thing you taught me about human beings was this
They ain't made of nothing but water and shit ~What People Are Made Of ~Modest Mouse

"broken hearts want broken necks." ~Modest Mouse

"In this life like weeds, you're the dirt I'll breathe. Eyes lead us to see, hearts lead us to be" ~Modest Mouse

"What I used to think was me is just a faded memory." ~Down In It ~N.I.N.

I used to be so big and strong
I used to know my right from wrong
I used to never be afraid
I used to be somebody
I used to have something inside
now it's just this hole that's open wide
i used to want it all
i used to be somebody
~N.I.N.

Your god is dead
and know one cares
if there is a hell
I'll see you there
~Heresy ~N.I.N.

I told you I'd never say goodbye. Now I'm slipping on the tears you made me cry. ~N.I.N.

My lips may promise, but my heart is a whore. ~N.I.N.

how could i ever think it's funny how everything that
swore it wouldnt change is different now just like you
would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
and where were you?
how could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
never change is different now like you said you and me make it through didnt quite fall apart
where the fuck were you? ~Somewhat Damaged ~N.I.N.

you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow>br> you and me
even after everything
you're the queen and i'm the king
nothing else means anything ~We're in this together ~N.I.N.

it's something i have to do
i was there, too
before everything else
i was like you ~The Fragile ~N.I.N.

and just for the record
just so you know
i did not believe
that you could sink so low ~No, You Don't ~N.I.N.

i can still feel you
even so far away ~The Great Beneath ~N.I.N.

did you happen to catch
or did it happen so fast
what you thought would always last
has passed you by
is everthing speeding up
or am i just slowing down
just spinning around
and i don't know why
all the pieces don't fit
though i really didn't give a shit
i never wanted to be like you
but foe all i aspire
i am really a liar
and i'm running out of things i can do ~Where is Everybody? ~N.I.N.

the tears of regret
frozen to the side of his face ~I'm looking forward to joining you, finally ~N.I.N.

crucified
after all i've died
after all i've tried
you are still inside
all i do
i can still feel you
you reaming
i am stained ~Underneath it all ~N.I.N.

Something I Can Never Have~NIN

I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends they're in my head ~Nirvana

Just because you're paranoid
Doesn't mean they're not after you
~Territorial Pissings ~Nirvana

"I'll die for you, I'll cry for you, I'll lie for you, why? because I love you!" ~Nirvana

"Dont forget to Kiss you Killer" ~No Knife

as soon as we're born
we begin to age,
i can feel me dying.
reminisce of now,
until there's nothing
left to do but die.
who amongst us would choose
today for but one thing alone?
the world turns,
but we don't feel it.
~Maybe the world is flat ~On Broken Wings

but some smiles both resurrect,
and drain the life from me.
i don't tell you everything.
it's heartless,
the pictures remind me
i'm calloused to smiles.
~I do my crosswords in pen ~On Broken Wings

the vision of
achievemet blinds
the vision of morality,
science passed off as emotion
not all things are
worth experiencing.
"and the world is full of dreamers."
~The Spawning of Progression ~On Broken Wings

i'm tired of being tired.
the inferno will describe
the inner most circle as
the destination for the worst.
you move like dripping ice.
you stare like realization.
~Like StarScream ~On Broken Wings

separate your thoughts.
i could show you sometime.
with all your words
you could not paralyze.
~A Movie Kind Of Life ~On Broken Wings

am i nothing more than an upright ape?
built in defenses,
heartbeat increases
an ape with shame,
and an ego to match
~Six Hundred Cubic Centimeters ~On Broken Wings

there was never pressure.
you just seep in to what
ever mold you're in the
presence of long
enough to fill out.
as you speak,
walk away.
keep walking.
drop dead.
say what you mean to,
you fucking liar.
~As You Speak ~On Broken Wings

last night i realized
my excitement for
events that were
not yet my life.
upon return,
it's all in the past,
it's all a memory.
all my life is,
is this moment,
and what i can remember.
what i cannot see,
does not exist,
and to think i
would have mourned.
i fell in love with life.
what i cannot see
does not exist.
all my life is memories.
to last night?
we're shells.
we're nothings.
~A Lazarus Envy ~On Broken Wings

"If I don't make it, know that I've loved you all along, just like sunny days that we ignore because we're all dumb and jaded" ~Our Lady Peace

"Maybe you should sleep, or maybe you just need a friend. You'll be safe in here. You'll be safe with me." ~Our Lady Peace

"I know someday you'll have a beautiful life. Someday you'll be a star in somebody else's sky. Why can't it be mine?" ~Black ~Pearl Jam

"i feel the darkness growing stronger as you cram lies down my throat. how does that work out for you in your holy quest to be above reproach?" ~Pedro the lion

" All the experts say you ought to start them young so they can learn to love the taste of corporate come." ~Pedro the Lion

" If it isn't making dollars then it isn't making cents." ~Pedro the Lion

"i know i don't belong where the water runs so free." ~Piebald

"and she sang i will come clean, cause the cleaner i get is the messiest yet." ~Piebald

"i'm on a first name basis with obsession." ~Piebald

"just when i thought we could not grow further apart you proved me wrong." ~Piebald

"life is a bitch, and life is a beach, you got the sun and the sand and your suit all within your reach" ~Piebald

"Yeah it's truth so it comes as no surprise that the rock revolution won't be televised" ~Piebald

"They'll find us dead for this, they'll find us dead and smiling" ~Piebald

"If I show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight?
And if I open my heart to you
show you my weak side
What would you do?
~Pink Floyd

if i make it home with what i have left i'll never ever leave again. and i don't know if it was the weight of your words or the way you said my name. say my name. that sent me packing. i stagger away. if i never see your face again it won't kill me half as much as it will keep me alive. keep me alive. two hundred fifty miles and i still can't shake the thought of your place. the thought of you. the smell of you the smell of your house the thought of your face ---Where The Arrow Went Out ~Planes Mistaken For Stars

when the memories fade it makes you feel like you don't own a thing ~Planes Mistaken For Stars

and if you don't break this day. then i'll die or die trying. to steal us away. because to say we beat this is everything ~Planes Mistaken For Stars

and if they're there. i'll tear them down for you. because i refuse to be without you. or the things you do. because i refuse to bury you ~Planes Mistaken For Stars

"i count my seconds inside you and struggle to find. instead, i fall and i wrecked us all." ~planes mistaken for stars

"change means nothing when nothing wants to change." ~poison the well

"I could never swallow your false ideals of a lifeless happy ending" ~Poison the Well

"Induldge me...Pick a dozen black roses, lay them at my feet...Buried in Golgotha, amongst the deads elite." ~Prayer for Cleansing

"Her wicked sins provoke me...My love has come undone." ~Prayer for Cleansing

"tired of waking up with a new haircut every morning." ~q and not u

"cold meow is not the message." ~q and not u

"this is fantastic for you." ~q and not u

"we all reject for pleasure." ~q and not u

"i don't care if it hurts-i wanna have control-i wanna perfect body-i wanna perfect soul-i want you to notice-when i'm not around-you're so fucking special- i wish i was special-but i'm a creep-i'm a weirdo-what the hell am i doing here- i don't belong here"
~Radiohead

"phew, for a minute there i lost myself." ~radiohead

"rain down, rain down, come on rain down on me." ~radiohead

"If ignorance is bliss then knock the smile off my face" ~Rage Against the Machine

"all this time and so much to show. i can't hold on but i can't let go." ~recover

"would you be the light by which i return?" ~recover

"to see your smiling face there helps me everytime i need it." ~recover

"we move in one direction and it becomes all we know." ~recover

"Is it our duty to die for government and gods? Is it our privledge to slave for market and industry? Is it our right to follow laws set to scare and opress? Is it our gift to stay in line and will it take away the blame?" ~Refused

"great words won't cover ugly actions, and good frames won't save bad paintings." ~refused

"And I'd do anything to make you feel like you were worth it all" ~Taylor(Roots Of Cause)

"Can she see the stars lost in moonlight, falling down past her shadow" ~Taylor(Roots Of Cause)

"Don't leave me its not me you know I cant control what goes through my mind so stay please understand I don't mean all I've said tonight" ~Ordinary Life ~SamIAm

"I don't like the way you touch me you hurt me once again something about you irritates me some things break before the bend can't remember the last time I saw your face without a frown and would you believe it or not there's people who like having you around had to be a time when there were good things on your mind there's got to be something in your life that worked out right the only time I need you is when you've gone away I just want somebody to talk to I don't need you getting in my way" ~My Convience ~SamIam

"Oh well you've got me under your spell and i dont think im kidding around. I dont think I can forget you now" ~Hold ~Saves The Day

"Its hard to look in the mirror these days when everyone has everything you'd rather be" ~Handsome Boy ~Saves The Day

"I'll never show my face again because its too scarred and bloody to be enough and i dont have the right stuff" ~Blind Folded ~Saves The Day

If this is the last thing you do tell me its ok for me to have these feelings for you and that its notmal to want to call you oh im dialing the phone and I'm letting it ring for hoursand i pretend to hear your voice" ~Three Miles Down ~Saves the day

"Am I dreaming? Is this really me? Because I never felt so not lonely and if this could be real right now then everyday for the rest of my life I will search for moments full of you" ~Allways Ten Feet Tall ~Saves the Day

i think that tonight i will sneak into your house and ill sing songs and wake you up and ill take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges and you'll say you dont want to be with me, no one ever does, no one ever thinks of me that way ~Saves The Day

You say that you hate capitalism
And won't you compromise
But when you're out of cigarettes
THE FUNNY THING IS YOUR BUTT'S FULL OF JIZZ
~Nicaragua ~Screeching Weasel

Call me a faggot call me a butt loving fudge packing queer
I don't care cause it's the straight in straight edge
That makes me wanna drink a beer
And be a pansy a homo

Shock the middle class take it up your punk rock ass
You rub your puny thing when you see studs with tight jeans pass you on the street
Who wears short shorts you wear short shorts you're so full of shit
Why don't you admit that you don't have the balls to be a queer
~I wanna be a homosexual ~Screeching Weasel

It's all a matter of soul and fire
Infatuation or true desire
The thrill of discovery, divine intervention
Cruel cruel change, the pain of rejection

As you walk away think of all the joy we shared
If you decide you need me I'll be wondering if I care
Not there to soothe your soul, friend to tender friend
I think our love is coming to an end

King persuader, congratulations
You share her heart, you bought her soul
Princess confusion, come to me again
Saying goodbye was so much fun

When you walk away feel the freedom in your heart
There's a joy in letting go, free to find a love apart
When I lose control I need a kind forgiving friend
But I think our love is coming to an end
I know our love is coming to an end
Soul and Fire ~Sebadoh

"Whatever happened to the world
Whatever happened to the girl I thought I knew
It just can't be true - I guess I'm losing you" ~Shades Apart

"i can only forget so much at one time" ~small brown bike

"running from things that have no force, my naive self comes up for air. knowing that all of this time i'm wrong and i admit my guilt." ~small brown bike

i know that this might sound strange,
but i can't think of a better way to say that if i could find the words i'd tear them out of my throat
and crush them into your eyes.
so i wrote myself a list of things that i've been meaning to say.
i forced them out of my head, but i can't find your eyes.
i try to call it a truce, approach you crush them out of my life, convince you.
a walk is all that i need;
this ambiguity feels like a knife in me. ~The Cannon and tanks ~Small Brown Bike

all of the sudden i thought you were leaving,
didn't you know you gave me something to believe in?
you kept me breathing when my times were down.
the last time i saw you i took a good look at the sky.
and you told me something.
i should have said something,
then i remembered that i saw your eyes and not the rain. ~Zerosum ~Small Brown Bike

"There is a sun, it'll come, the sun, i hear them call me down i held you once, a love that once, and a life that just begun and you're all i see" ~Smashing Pumpkins

I wanted more than life can ever grant me" ~Smashing Pumpkins

"today is the greatest day I've ever known can't live for tommorow might not live that long" ~Smashing pumpkins

"Sear those thoughts of me, alone and unhappy, I never liked me anyway." ~Geek U.S.A ~Smashing Pumpkins

"Happiness will make you wonder, will I feel okay, it scares the disenchanted far away." ~Hummer ~Smashing Pumpkins

emptiness is loneliness
and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness
and god is empty
just like me
~smashing pumpkins

"Tomorrow's just an excuse away" ~Smashing Pumpkins

"I know you better than you fake it" ~Smashing Pumpkins

"My heart tapped me on the shoulder and whispered in my ear 'Don't be a pussy all your life.'" ~Star Struck One ~Smoking Popes

It was me against the world, I was sure that I'd win but the world fought back punished me for my sins ~Social Distortion

"How can you love me when you don't love yourself?" ~Social Distortion

"Life Goes By So Fast, You Only Want To Do What You Think Is Right. Close Your Eyes And Then It's Past, It's The Story Of My Life" ~Social Distortion

"I had me a good girl,
Her kisses sweeter than wine.
And I allways hoped
That someday I'd make her mine." ~It coulda been me ~Social Distortion

"I Love the sound when I smash the glass, If I get caught they're going to kick my ass, Mommys worried about the way I drink, Daddy can't figure out the way I think..." ~Social Distortion

"The good times come and the good times go, i only wish the good times could stay a little longer, i think about the good times we had and why they had to end" ~Social Distortion

"Take away, take away Take away this ball and chain I'm lonely and I'm tired And I can't take any more pain" ~Social Distortion

We used to walk and used to talk
We used to laugh and we used to cry
And there will allways be a place in my heart for her ~Social Distortion

hello darling, it's nice to see you
it's been a long time
how's your new love are you happy
hope you're doing alright
just to know this means so much to me
what's that darling, how am i doing
guess i'm doing alright except i can't sleep
and i cry all night till dawn
what i'm trying to say is that i love you and
i miss you and i'm sorry that i done you wrong
look up darling let me kiss you just for old times sake
let me hold you in my arms one more time
good luck darling may god bless you
and may each step you take
bring you closer to the things you seek to find
goodbye darling gotta go now
gotta try and find a way
to lose these memories of a love so warm and true
and if you should ever find it in your heart love
to forgive me
come back darling, i'll be waiting for you
~Darling ~Songs:Ohia

as long as i'm staying, i never will belong ~Songs:Ohia

If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend." ~Stone Temple Pilots

"The mirrors lie
those aren't my eyes
destroy them
raise my hand.
Reflected in savage shards
A new face
A soul reborn."
~Sunny Day Real Estate

"i dream to heal your wounds but i bleed my self..." ~sunny day real estate

"to the inconsistency of my moods, it's times like these where silence means everything." ~taking back sunday

And its too bad that this side of you cant be seen by everyone. I have to learn how to remember to forget and how to build this all again. i have to build this all again. So now you've got something to forget. ~Something to forget ~Texas Is The Reason

So now it´s your turn to tell me that I´m wrong. I´ve never seen anytihng quite like this I always miss. I´m asking you to smile because that what i like best. i need to be this far away from you to understand that i can do this. You act like I don´t know my own way home. ~Antique ~Texas Is The Reason

Its getting cold all aver again so I´ll be inside way too much again. You´ll have to believe me . You have to hear me when I say: I´ll make up something that you´ll believe in me. This is becoming to routine for me. there will be time for the tomorrow, but it´s days like this that keep me alive. ~Nickel Wound ~Texas Is The Reason

I´m getting tired of standing around, just sitting here and waiting to be found. Same old shit just a different day. I´ll wait around for one more day but I know that´s what I will always say. ~Back and to the left ~Texas Is The Reason

You think you finally figured it out. Me, myself, I´ll never learn. Maybe with you on my side, I´ll be able to reach the sky. ~Blue Boy ~Texas Is The Reason

"Let fury have the hour, anger can be power, don't you know that you can use it..." ~Clampdown ~The Clash

"And you have the right to free speach, as long as you're not dumb enough, to actually try it..." ~Know Your Rights ~The Clash

"Now i would do most anything to get you back by my side...but i just keep on laughing hiding the tears in my eyes" ~The Cure

I think I've reached that point
Where giving up and going on
Are both the same dead end to me
~The Cure

"I Lift My Hands From Touching You, To Touch The Wind That Whispers Through, This Twilight Garden Turns Into, A World Where Dreams Are Real..." ~The Cure

"It Was The Sweetness Of Your Skin, It Was The Hope Of All We Might Have Been. That Filled Me With The Hope To Wish, Impossible Things." ~THE CURE

"The days are bright and filled with pain, inclose me in your gentle rain..." ~The Doors

"i've made up my mind; to lie would be to compromise, i'm sorry i hope you can forgive me but what you want from me is killing me..." ~the get up kids

"I smoke because I'm hoping for an early death and I need to cling to something." ~The Smiths

"No one in the world ever gets what they want and that is beautiful. Everybody dies frustrated and sad and that is beautiful." ~Don't Let's Start ~They Might Be Giants

"Excuse me if I have some place in my mind where I go time to time" ~Tom Petty

I remember you so clearly, the first one through the door. I woke up to find you drifting, too far from the shore... You were the one who made things different, you were the one who let me in, you were the one thing i could count on, after all, you were my friend." ~Don't Fade On Me ~Tom Petty

"And the days went by like paper in the wind. Everything changed, then changed again. It's hard to find a friend. It's hard to find a friend." ~Tom Petty

"I'm under no illusion of what I meant to you, but you made an impression, sometimes I still feel the bruise.." ~trembling blue stars

What can I say to change your heart?
To make you want us once more?
To stop you throwing aside
What will always be the love of our lives?
~Trembling Blue Stars

Though there'll always be a part of me
Hoping for a miracle
Realistically I know it is
Over between you and me
And I know too
How it's time
For me to leave the past behind
~Trembling Blue Stars

I want to say "Do you know what I went through?"
But of course you do
For the way you broke me all up inside
Just mirrors what I did to you
I never thought you'd do what you did to me
I was always so sure
About how you felt towards me
But I know that it's not as simple as that
No it didn't just come
Out of the blue
But through all I did to you
I'm not the only one to have cried and cried
You went through that hell too
I'm just the only one
Who must shoulder the
Blame for breaking us in two
The only one
Who must shoulder the
Blame for breaking us in two
And I never thought that we'd end up
Fighting one another
But then again
Do people ever?
No, I never saw us winding up
Fighting one another
But then again
Do people ever?
~Trembling Blue Stars

How I wish she couldn't live without me
The way that she now can
And the way I can't give up hope completely
What does she make of that?
I guess it must try
I guess it must try
Her patience so But I hope that as well
She understands how
How I can't let go
~Trembling Blue Stars

And there are still times, still times when I
Think that she only will save me
And I know that's hardly a fair thing to think
I know how unfair that is of me
Of me, of me
I want to be happy again
Something that she made me
I want to be happy again
And I'm so afraid I never will be
I found and I lost the one
~Trembling Blue Stars

Anyone else
I'd always be thinking
How they're not you
I'd always be thinking
How they're not you
I just wish you
Would give me the chance to
Never, never hurt you again
~Trembling Blue Stars

I'm sorry, so sorry
For everything
~Tremblung Blue Stars

I nearly thought that maybe she
Could be the one to set me free.
I went and fell again -
There's just something about her, I guess.
~Trembling Blue Stars

When I'm near you my heart won't be told,
It just feels what it feels, knows what it knows.
I want to do what feels right, but you're not mine to hold.
When I'm near you my heart won't be told;
Of desire and sadness, a storm inside blows.
Those lips that I lost, I want to kiss so.
I'm so far from being over you.
I'm so far from being over you.
I still just want to be yours,
I've never loved you more.
When I'm near you my heart won't be told.
It still hurts me, the life above me you chose.
I'll miss you forever, but I guess you know.
~Trembling Blue Stars

If I knew you didn't miss me,
If I knew you didn't think of me,
If I knew your feelings for me
Were dead and buried,
It would be hard, but not as hard as
This knowing you still care -
It would be easier
Than knowing there's still something there.
I know how you don't need this
But I just can't keep quiet.
You've left me feeling so lost,
Where do I go with it?
I know you have a new life,
I know you're not unhappy,
I know that he's good to you -
But don't you just want things easy?
So go ahead and hate me,
I know I promised I would leave it -
A troublemaker's what you've made me
But can't you see we're worth it?
We just belong together,
I think somewhere inside you know it.
Would you admit it ever?
I just don't think it's complicated.
Life shouldn't be about:
"I'm happy, but..."
I just think you should chase
Specialness
For love.
I guess all I'm really saying
Is how I think you're wrong here,
And some things are worth the chaos
That they come along with.
Don't you want more?
Don't you want to burn?
Burn again?
~Trembling Blue Stars

I'm tired, I've tried.
I'm tired, I've tried.
I'm so far away from my good days tonight.
I'm so very close to coming apart.
How long can you live with a broken heart?
~Trembling Blue Stars

This is my, my goodbye to a blue-eyed girl,
My farewell to forever.
No long last kiss, only this:
Someone coming to their senses.
It's taken me a long, long time to get here.
But she's so far from what she was,
She doesn't need me like before,
There's been too much forgetting.
For that part of her busy life,
That part for me she sets aside,
It's time to stop living.
I don't know what my future is,
I just know who it isn't with.
~Trembling Blue Stars

I want to be right about you
I want you to be
An angel sent to save me
I've set my heart on you
I want you to bring
The curtain down on the waiting
~Trembling Blue Stars

The person you were
I know you're not her
She went away
~Trembling Blue Stars

Sleep
Sleep
Cover me with your blanket
Get me out of this world
For a spell
Take me away
To the world of dreams
Where I'm not afraid of silence
Where I'm not afraid to think
I'm not so stupid I can't see
There's nothing up ahead of me
I'm not so stupid I don't know
About all of the wrong roads
the wrong roads
the wrong roads
~Trembling Blue Stars

"Do you believe in forever, I don't even believe in tomorrow, the only thing that lasts forever, are memories and sorrow." ~type o negative

have you heard the story of my two best friends?
one was me and the other was all my things
and in that house where i used to be from
i am nothing and nothing is number 1
take your turn at the end of the line
i'm finally first, but i'm waiting for some friends of mine
how's that song go about who you are?
and how everythings changing
but i haven't changed so far ~You Landed So Gracefully ~And Nothing is Number 1 ~Up Up Down Down Left Right Left Right B A Start

delaying sleep for our company
keeps us and the night going
conversations go beyond tangible concepts
and were drawing our parallels
in the most horrible of ways
conclude my legacy
end the nightmare
i can cause others' tragedy but i prevent my own
we realize it's an idea of immeasurable trepidation
but it all comes too easily
so easily too easily ~By Suprise ~And Nothing is Number 1 ~Up Up Down Down Left Right Left Right B A Start

from the haunts of daily life
where is waged the daily strife
common wants and common cares
cuts the human heart with tears
~Pale Horse ~John Vanderslice

the sun came up
up above the sea
the streaming clouds
tore into my tranquility
~Up Above The Sea ~John Vanderslice

but the truth is I have no faith in happiness
it turns to fear, draws the devils near
so I jumped the fence
and went out west
~White Plains ~John Vanderslice

I found the key
underneath the leaves
I was set free

I found the truth
underneath the leaves
I was complete
~Underneath the leaves ~John Vanderslice

you know her name
sits in your brain
like a tumor
eyes still shine in your memory
shes going to die
~nikki oh nikki ~John Vanderslice

tell me what to fight for
tell me what's the right war
tell me what I'm here for
~greyhound ~John Vanderslice

hold on, keep it together
hold on
no one, no one has ever
made it so far in time

no one knows what happens next
because time travel is lonely
listen,
wear your headphones,
and I’ll whisper you the code
of a helper application
that you can download

it’s called "Remember"
because no one knows what happens next
time travel is lonely
~time travel is lonely ~John Vanderslice

How we waste our prescious time,
Marching in the picket line,
That surround those striking hearts,
And the time is never now,
And we know who we should love,
But we're never certain how.
I know,
You might role your eyes at this,
But I'm so,
Glad that you exist. ~The Reasons ~The Weakerthans

Overcome the stupid things we say.
Say I needed more than this,
say I needed one more kiss.
We left that light on way too long now.
Let's plant a bomb at city-hall and kill an MLA.
We'll talk the night away.
You call in sick, I'll quit the word-games that I play.
I swear I way more than half believe it when I say that somewhere love and justice shine.
Cynicism falls asleep.
Tyranny talks to itself.
Sappy slogans all come true.
We forget to feed our fear. ~Confessions Of A Futon-Revolutionist ~Fallow ~The Weakerthans

Had one of those days when you want to try heroin,
drunk driving, some form of soft suicide.
Sitting in silence and staring at ceilings or peeling the paint off of things to confide.
Teach me to wiggle my ears like that,
show me the scar that you got when you fell off your bike.
Ask me the questions you never want answers to.
We can re-write them however we like.
Stop the hardwood floor's lopsided grin.
Leave the dirt and dead flowers in a brown coffee.
Let your hand melt a hole in the frost.
Peer out under a sky that looks just like a shirt I lost.
Maybe someday the lies we've led around will crawl under our beds and sleep off the years. ~Leash ~Fallow ~The Weakerthans

So here's the last one I have left.
We fell a little deep, I watched you fall asleep.
And nothing happens in the end,
but I remember when I could remember when.
Seems like a long time ago. ~The Last One ~Fallow ~The Weakerthans

Knock so I'll know you're still there,
half listening, interpreting the air.
Full of failing foreign tongue,
my dialect of stammer come undone.
I've got these threads of you and I that I use to tie my doubts down,
and from four times-zones away,
still yesterday, still talking to the past:
from the front seat of your car,
gravel road and falling, falling hands and falling star.
Start the engine up.
I'd like a new identity.
A pseudonym.
Some plastic surgery.
Or just a way to disappear.
Someone to write me out of here.
I hear you hum an unfamiliar song.
Thought maybe you would come along.
Perhaps you'd like to see some piece of this;
my new philosophy is that a crappy tape deck somewhere plays a greatest hits collection of strange and
tender moments,
lost, stranded, and forgotten.
I'll meet you there.
(Something I forgot to say:
can't find a way to make this mark more clear.
So crack your skull before you weep,
and I'll try to keep some part of me sincere.) ~Greatest Hits Collection ~Fallow ~The Weakerthans

Wait near the end of September.
Wait for some stars to show.
Try so hard not to remember what all empty playgrounds know:
that sympathy is cruel.
Reluctant jester or simpering fool.
But six feet off the highway,
our bare legs stung with wheat,
we'll dig a hole and bury all we could not defeat,
and say that we'll stay for one more year.
Bend to tie a shoelace, or bend against your fear,
and say that you'll stay for one more year.
With so much left to seek, the lease runs out next week. ~Fallow ~Fallow ~The Weakerthans

Rely a bit to heavily on alcohol and irony.
Get clobbered on by courtesy, in love with love, and lousy poetry.
And I'm leaning on a broken fence between Past and Present tense.
And I'm losing all these stupid games that I swore I'd never play.
And it almost feels okay.
Circumnavigate this body of wonder and uncertainty.
Armed with every previous failure, and amateur cartography,
I breathe in deep before I spread these maps out on my bedroom floor.
Leaving. Wave goodbye.
Losing, but I'll try, with the last ways left, to remember.
Sing my imperfect offering. ~Aside ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

How your body still remembers things you told it to forget.
How those furious affections followed you.
I've got this store-bought way of saying I'm okay,
and you learned how to cry in total silence.
We're talented and bright.
We're lonely and uptight.
We've found some lovely ways to disappoint,
but the airport's almost empty this time of the year,
so let's go play on a baggage carousel.
Set our watches forward like we're just arriving here
from a past we left in a place we knew too well. ~Watermark ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

I'm weary with right-angles, abbreviated daylight,
and waiting for a winter to be done.
Why do I still see you in every mirrored window,
in all that I could never overcome?
How I don't know what I should do with my hands when I talk to you.
How you don't know where you should look, so you look at my hands.
How movements rise and then dissolve, melted by our shallow breath.
How causes dance away from me. ~Pamphleteer ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

Headlights race towards the corner of the dining room.
Half illuminate a face before they disappear.
You breathe in forty years of failing to describe a feeling.
I breathe out smoke against the window, trace the letters in your name.
Our letters sound the same;
full of all our changing that isn't change at all.
All straight lines circle sometime.
You said "Somewhere there's a box full of replacement parts
to all the tenderness we've broken or let rust away.
Somewhere sympathy is more than just a way of leaving.
Somewhere someone says 'I'm sorry.'
Someone's making plans to stay."
So tell me it's okay.
Tell me anything, or show me there's a pull,
unassailable, that will lead you there,
from the dark, alone, benevolence that you've never known,
or you knew when you were four and can't remember.
Where a small knife tears out those sloppy seams,
and the silence knows what you silence means,
and your metaphors (as mixed as you can make them)
are linked, like days, together.
I still hear trains at night, when the wind is right.
I remember everything, lick
and thread this string that will never mend you
or tailor more than a memory of a kitchen floor,
or the fire-door that we kept propping open.
And I love this place; the enormous sky,
and the faces, hands that I'm haunted by,
so why can't I forgive these buildings,
these frameworks labeled "Home"? ~This is a fire door never leave open ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

If I could I would make you a raging river,
with angry rapids, supplied with rain,
so you could always meander
and forever be able to run away
without contending with myths wrongly interpreted with pain.
A harsh wind. ~Without Mythologies ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

My city's still breathing (but barely it's true)
through buildings gone missing like teeth.
The sidewalks are watching me think about you,
all sparkled with broken glass.
I'm back with scars to show.
Back with the streets I know.
They never take me anywhere but here.
Those stains in the carpet, this drink in my hand,
these strangers whose faces I know.
We meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say " I wanted it this way"
and wait for the year to drown.
Spring forward, fall back down.
I'm trying not to wonder where you are.
All this time lingers, undefined.
Someone choose who's left and who's leaving.
Memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me:
some matches, a blanket, this pain in my chest,
the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires,
new words for old desires,
and every birthday card I threw away.
I wait in 4/4 time.
Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home. ~Left and Leaving ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

There's blood in the sink, and he's plunging his wrists in.
A hangover halo is washing away.
Mechanic-school dropout stares into the mirror,
stands up in his derelict daydreams.
Always too tall,
always walked around wearing a smile that was never quite sure of itself.
Planning a future of failures inflicted in phone calls
from strip clubs and bail bonds.
Don't give me that look,
I looked harder than most did,
let details like sharp nails punch holes in my shoes.
Soft-traced to frown as I put the receiver down.
Where do I go for a pardon?
There's a light left on.
There's a pace to our direction.
There's a movie-still of a heart I'd like to mention. ~History to the defeated ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

Hey I found the safest place to keep all our tenderness.
Keep all our bad ideas. Keep all our hope.
It's here in the smallest bones, the feet and the inner-ear.
It's such an enormous thing to walk and to listen.
I'd like to fall asleep to the beat of you breathing
in a room near a truckstop on a highway somewhere.
You are a radio. You are an open door.
I am a faulty string of blue christmas lights.
You swim through frequencies.
You let that stranger in, as I'm blinking off and on and off again.
We've got a lot of time.
Or maybe we don't, but I'd like to think so, so let me pretend.
These are my favourite chords.
I know you like them too.
When I get a new guitar, you can have this one and sing me a lullaby.
Sing me the alphabet.
Sing me a story I haven't heard yet. ~My Favourite Chords ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

we're rolling neon lights and slinking purple skies squeeze out soft regrets from all our lives as i greet another door that opens in to that place that we repeatedly begin i'm tangled up in tries slipping on i wonder why i face affection not embrace another urban wasteland thick with fears i see lights that shine like frozen television tears or dying embers of another day please tell me what it is i i wanna say i'm tangled up in tries slipping on i wonder why i face affection not embrace affection not embrace ~slips and tangles ~Left and Leaving ~The Weakerthans

"i did what my body told me to. i didn't mean to do you harm." -weezer

"but when we wake it's all been erased and so it seems only in dreams." -weezer

"i never could do that which might hurt you so try and be cool." -weezer

isn't this life so wonderful, isn't this life fucking shit, the bells are ringing but where's my angel, i never believed in much but i believed in you, surrendered everything but your not listening, if i would have knowon this yesterday i should have killed myself, because forever lasts a moment, what is sense(so high on adoration) from cold hands, (its like kissing long, lost love but november has chapped my lips, cracked lips bleed), some years before or was it years after sense driven lips they wandered, where's my angel, (i carved"hope" in my wrist, i bled hope from my life), sound in, but where's my angel( no i can't see the truth in your eyes), ask what would you fall in love for, touch it and so it died, what's that in pretentious dreams, mechanic humility, where's my angel. ~Forever Last a Moment ~You and I

We speak in whispers, in dreams, one brief moment when our thoughtless hands could touch and the bridges we burned could rebuild once again, but i know i won't escape, too many words fail to be silent, i wish you would speak so then i wouldn't have to, stars fall quicker than hearts breaking, and standing deaf with no light impairs my vision, this skin wrapped tightly, tightly to the bone, words constrict tighter in my throat, time moves too slow for this, i can't keep up with you, i wish i could speak to you instead of dreaming, words don't (no time to quite our stations), fit the world so why speak (vigilance over tired eyes), when all is silent, forever in silence, ( fall asleep is to slip), a chance(through mile cracks of social disguise), do you see what i mean, these words fall like wishes from skies torn and bleeding, incessant heartattacks, stars fall quicker than hearts breaking, but i know i won't escape, the sometimes that's enough, maybe i read too much fiction because i'm still dreaming of going back to you (i never thought i'd have to say these words to you my friend) Somewhere i never wanted to go (those days of you and i against the world came to an end), dream,(sometimes i see your face and i cannot hide the pain i have) of going back to you (those days went by so fast), somewhere i never wanted to go, ( they took my breath, they took the life out of me), you wanted, you needed, you took it away from me, you never said it, never said it, but it's too late for her. ~Achilles ~You and I

i saw your picutre in a photograph and that's where i thought i dwelt, in you, make me like it, make me like myself, we're so imperfect, our struggles are imperfect, you'll never take it thought i know you'll try, you'll never take it all,(all these imperfect things) this is a statement, a statement of self-respect. ~All Imperfect Things ~You and I

There was a time when we thought things would change, and so i might say it, though does it matter what i say, and for this we never became one but always two, i'll wait for the day when the sky will fall, (i won't be saved, this time we're full of dreaming), you never let i touch you, pushed away(paths crossed and running out), all the things you say in spite of me, you never let it touch you, pushed away, and all we said is gone, i saw you in a photograph(distance can't kill all the love i feel in my heart), time stood still with hands outstretched( time may go by but my love will remain in my heart), but these never hold our wishes through or tell the truth of what it was like, but too soon this will be all we have. ~A Day That Passes Through Us ~You and I

i don't want to die without you, where it splits there was only you, and all was quiet, i will not let my heart die, i know(why did you have to choose me) i'll die, we're all(i was so young i was so free) so imperfect, i don't(you saw the chance that i could be) want to die( no words can replace what you did to me that day) without you, ( it's not my fault) i fear dying without you. ~Crossing The Rubicon ~You and I

I cried your name but You don't hear me. I'm tired of standing alone, my throat is bleeding just like just like that person who never saw any of the good I did, and just dwelt on the bad. I'll give you something to remember, my life, cold ceramic on my back, the warm water feels like an ocean of happiness up to my clean shaven face, our hands hang over the edge dripping wonderfully, like our hearts on paper. my record is broken, you wanted this. I'll give you something to remember. ~Something to Remember ~You and I

Your whispers call like angels screaming, and everytime you cry an angel dies. i've held out my hands to touch your face, but hung my head to low and choked upon my own breath. I feel you, you breathing, I still feel you. You've pulled the nails from your hands, cast me out to sea, and I said my goodbye at the water's edge. But i still remember the color of your eyes. ~Heart's Divide ~You and I

The lights burn against my skin, come nights I just want the pain to end, some words will never fade away, burning. I see the tears falling from you eyes, burning my skin, tell it's the same. I miss your smile, the day we stared out window, into a sunset, how the beauty was an image of you, tell you love me just the same, just like you did, some words will never fade away, this is for you. i'm nothing without your love, tell me you love me the same. I want to hear your sweet voice again, I can feel you inside of me, you taught me how to love, I would live for you and die for you, this is not for me, this is for you.. ~Silent Morning Whisper ~You and I

My heart bleeds when you're not around, mend it with your touch, to touch your face is to dream, ending in a nightmare, wa